All my ventings right here because I am the only person who posts things in this section.. Wow...I am depressing. Don't worry though, I do try my hardest to become a better person. =) Spoiler: 11/16 Thinking about things, no one is there to help you. If that is the case, then why are you here? Go away and don't come back, I don't want to see you and hear what you have to say that isn't going to help. You are the shittiest parent I've ever had and you don't deserve any recognition for it because of that. I work hard and somehow you never see that, or encourage that part of me. All you do is tell me what to do that I am already working on. Yeah, thanks captain obvious. I fucking can't take your bullshit and do my work at the same time, and for some reason you expect it to be done? At the same time,. you say that I don't care about my work? It is obvious that you don't know who I am, and that you are just someone else trying to oppress me on what I can do. I can say that you are another person, but that does not define who the hell you are at this point. You are the worst parents I've ever had and I wish that dad would be a better parent before he dies. Unfortunately, that cannot happen, and he still expects something of my actions and not me as a person. I exist here, and for some reason you leave me on a fucking computer all day thinking that I am fine and happy when you are dealing with your lives wondering why I am not working on chores of helping out. You never tell me to help. Here, you tell me to ask for it, and yet you never ask for it. That is why I can't bare to listen to what you say because you never involve me or think I take pride in my work. I joined marching band, I missed a few days in it and you say I can quit in the mid seasons? You truly don't understand who I am, and I am not dissapointed on how ungrateful I am of you. If you think I don't care, then stop bugging me from my work, because you're clearly someone being counter-productive to what I do. I could spend days, or months just to vent, and it will be all your fault. I am sure you'd love to continously ask, :What is wrong with you?" when it is you who rarely looks at yourself in a mirror; a mirror that sees how you treat others. Of course you have issues dealing with your current job; you make it harder for yourself. I've joined CR like three times now and you don't seem to understand how committed to this I am. You are such a terrible parent and I cannoy ask anymore of you for that because everything you give to me when I do my work does not help. You are no help. You keep saying you can't help. THEN WHY WON'T YOU SHUT UP? I don't Need you to argue with me and waste my time. Just go away, because your presence is not admired. No wonder father divorced you for a smoker, she is a different kind of shade in terms of how similarly bad parents you both are. At least she smiles and leaves me alone, that's something I at least respect. You don't respect me, you are stupid, and you are still foolish as you appear to be when my dad was with you. I hate both of you and I wish that you would just go away and never come back. I AM DOING MY WORK RIGHT NOW. I DON'T NEED YOUR "HELP" WHATEVER THAT MEAN TO YOU NOW. I need myself and my sanity to convince that I am a living, breathing person who has value in their life, and that is nothing I will give to you if you don't give to me. You are so retarded, and I wish that you knew how I felt about you. Doing it yourself I see, because "you love me" but not think of how I feel not being involved in anything that you do. You want me to cook, but YOU'VE NEVER TAUGHT ME. YOU NEVER TEACH ME ANYTHING. You are so terrible of a parent, that it becomes a daily routine for me to think of how bad you are. FOR SEVERAL TIMES THAT YOU HAVE IGNORED ME, HELP WITH ME ON SOMETHING I'D WANT AS A PERSON. YOU WOULD SEE YOUR OWN BENEFITS IF YOU HAD, BUT FOR SOME REASON YOU ARE THE IDIOT DAD DIVORCED. I don't even know who is worse now, you or him. I do know that I am better off not listening to you.